Powerful Experience of the Godanum

Was allowed to rest in bed until a full 6 o’clock in the morning! It was still nearly pitchblack outside, but when I realized what time it was, I got up and got going for the day. I read the last several stanzas of the Havamal, lit a new tealight candle on our altar and toned the Runes to the North next to the altar on my left since it sits on a West wall. I asked for the Holy Shining Ones, whichever would guide me now, to come that I may learn Their influence and where I should focus to move forward. The shop build out is going slowly but steadily, and I so look forward to having a central place where I can be Their instrument in my own community. Odin, God of the mind, has been more present (and for lack of better wording “On my mind”) lately. Also I was drawn to Heimdall, and while standing next to the altar this morning was given His Rune: Kaunaz to install in my headspace so I accepted and stepped forward and brought it in as directed.

While standing at the altar I was told that “At the altar you can trust completely that it is We, the Gods and Goddesses, Whom you see and hear and interact with. There will be no infiltration in this Holy communion with Us.” Due to the nature of the last couple of years, with much evil to deal with and spiritual battling to do against that darkness, this felt like a coming home – to a place of trust which has now been restored for me after much personal struggle against the dark side.

I now more fully understand the warrior mentality my mentor has modeled and taught, as the New  ideology that “there is only good and light if that is what you focus on” is a load of bull. It is up to us to be the bastions against the darkness – the beacons of light against the evil that would envelop our world given the chance.

When I sat back down after breathing the Runes at the altar and receiving the Kaun from Heimdall, I read over the instructions for Seidr meditation because I have not done so in a very long time even though I have been performing the Seidr meditations themselves. I followed the instructions more fully with the reminder fresh in my head as I then proceeded to Seidr 26 for this morning’s contemplation. It is amazing how the stretch of paradigms I am currently in the middle of for meditations each morning is exactly where I need to be during the shop build out – about passionately co-creating existence while yet remaining detached to outcomes, simply aligning with the Shining Ones and trusting “effort’s hammer” for higher work to be accomplished. There is a joy being restored for me by stepping forward into a greater responsibility of service, which gives me peace that this is part of my larger purpose in this life.

Recently, as I have completed most Seidr meditative paradigms each morning, I have been feeling a rush of energy throughout my entire body. It feels as if the energy of the Holy Gods and Goddesses, the wisdom tradition of our Holy ways, is being reinforced within my being in a very tangible way through and in connection with the Web of Wyrd and my body. This occurred again this morning, and then I went to the place in the Forest of the Gods and Goddesses where there is a tall standing altar, next to or part of which is the statue I first perceived with the heads of the two High Gods of the age we are presently coming out of (Odin), and that of the New Age we are entering (Vidar). Vidar’s head is now facing forward as we have perceived that Ragnarok has already occurred in Their plane of existence.

I lit a stick of incense and set it on the offering shelf in front of me, and Odin showed me that He was giving me the Rune Tiwaz for my mind as Heimdall had done with Kaunaz. He gave me the imagery of how they were both situated in my brain space and how to utilize them. I am so very grateful for this sacred gift as I desire to move forward in Their wisdom and light.

I was then taken to what I feel was a forge of Heimdall, at the edge of a forest and an open road with a deep forested valley or canyon on the other side of the road and another butte or high flat mountain on the other side of the canyon forest. I have also been more in tune with Heimdall and asking to know Him better very recently, and was given a vision of how he may appear, but to me He seems to have dirty blonde hair and blue eyes (but in energy form a more pure white visage radiating from His entire being) and wears the Yr shaped craftsman’s apron while He is working. In the little, open forge building where I met Him, it was not a big production space. He showed me that He didn’t need a big fancy space because He makes Holy fire which He then gives to us to go and spread in our own realities. This reminds me of the accounts where he came and gave humanity (as Rig) different gifts, to each their own, to be manifested and passed throughout the generations of Midgard.

He brought a flame of Holy light into His hands from His forge to give to me. It was green at the base – lighter green towards the back and deeper/brighter green towards the front. Then it faded to white hot in the center radiating up from the based and faded to a bright gold that was skewed toward slightly deep orange around the edges. I was told that, although I should accept it, I needed to be ready because it would really change things. I prepared myself consciously before accepting such a high gift from a God. He showed me he worked in very thick gloves, but could take them off to reveal human-like hands to match the rest of His visage. I was told to reach out my hands to accept His gift, and I did. I then asked that He guide my hands without my conscious effort to install the flame He had fashioned particularly for me to carry and my hands involuntarily did so. As it was brought into my body I saw and felt the fire ignite within my entire being. I was told this fire is to be carried to the rest of those whom I can serve and aid here in Midgard.

As if this wasn’t a powerful experience enough already, once the holy gift was brought into my being, I wanted to thank Heimdall for this sacred blessing. It was almost as if I felt I should shake His hand as you would for a good transaction between two people and I felt it right to extend my hand. However, upon doing so, Heimdall took my hand in one of His own and held it while placing the other hand over the top of mine. He said, “This is so you know this transaction is sacred and of the Godanum.” At once I felt this surge of something so beautiful and wonderful I cannot really describe it in words. It was as if He communicated His and the emotions of the Gods and Goddesses in this transaction between us; but it was something beyond love, joy, pride, support, and compassion all at once. If I had to put words to it, I’m sure I could keep going forever with a list. It made me well up with emotion and brought me to tears in the moment. Only a sacred encounter with a true, benevolent deity would accompany this signature.

I am truly at a loss for words for the boon of this sacred experience. I feel more whole than I have felt in a long time, and I turn towards my own realm here in Midgard to now share this Holy flame with others. Hail Heimdall! Haily Odin and the Holy Shining Ones!